When I received an email announcing that the Vineyard’s regional “Un-Conference” was canceled I couldn’t help but feel an overwhelming sense of disappointment. This was yet another event to add to my list of things that I missed over the summer. But Marshall and I felt determined to not let that time go to waste (he had already requested the week off from his other job), so we took it as an opportunity to invest in some much need self care and space. One night we packed up a picnic and found a cozy spot in a park–which sounds great, but this park closed at sunset and I had drastically underestimated how early the sun would set. Even though this was a night meant to de-stress and relax I found myself getting more and more stressed about how dark it was getting so quickly.
I sometimes find myself not ready to move forward as the season changes, stuck on the things that I’ll miss–stuck on the conferences that got cancelled, the shorter days, the dying leaves. Though autumn ends some things, it also brings new things with it: warm apple cider, cozy campfire nights, beautiful fall colors. Looking back I wonder how many small moments of joy, how many mini victories I have missed because I was looking at the wrong thing.
Are you giving your mini-victories as much attention as you give your mini-setbacks?
The changing season provides a good opportunity to explore where you are feeling stuck. What things are you grasping onto that are holding you back? What would happen if every time we felt disappointed we asked God “where are you moving?” I don’t know about you, but I don’t want to miss out on anything that God is doing. So, goodbye summer along with all the things that I missed; and hello fall with new adventures just waiting to be discovered.
Lord, I ask that you take my heart and make it yours. Share your excitement about new things with me, show me where you are moving. I don’t want to remain stuck, so I give you authority over the things I cling to. I want to walk with you, celebrate with you, share every moment with you instead of staying stuck in the past. Thank you for the goodness you have in store for us and the goodness we have already received. I love you Lord. Amen.
– Marissa Smith